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Origin Healing Work

Allowing Acceptance and Resolution

Three generations ago a married woman experiences rape by a soldier, while her husband is away at war. The shock, trauma, pain and shame she feels inside naturally needs to be healed by integrating that trauma within her family life; be it by sharing her pain with her mother or with her husband as a co-equal partner. However the morality of her family, as well as the social shame and religious conditioning caused that woman to never share her painful experience. She therefore never releases the pain by crying it out on a shoulder of a loved one so that her heart can begin to heal.

Instead she will keep it inside and carry the pain within her heart, her emotional and sensual/sexual levels like behind a wall and closed doors. Over time she gets used to the inner pain and its 'shut down' - vibration. Her husband and others might sense a change within her, but like most families, they will avoid offering meaningful support and rational explanation justifies them not supporting.

Now in our example let's say her husband comes back home after the war and in time a baby girl is born to the woman and her husband. We can imagine that the woman with unresolved pain of that sexual violation has probably not enjoyed the conception, but played the role of what she is expected as a wife. The woman now a mother will not be as emotionally, sensually opened towards the natural needs of her daughter since she, the mother, caries old pains of violation within her heart. The walls her pain has constructed, guards and prevents her from fully expressing love.

The baby girl will subconsciously sense the walls and the inner suffering of her beloved mom. (Every child naturally feels unconditional love for both parents.) As the girl grows older she gets used to her own female, sensual needs not being seen or accepted by her 'shut down' mother. In many cases this creates a feeling of lack and low self-esteem within a daughter like her. Because of that inner vibration as well as because of the deep love for the mother the heart and emotional body of the daughter will identify/entangle with her mother's unresolved pain. "Mom, I don't want you to suffer from your sexual violation and pain, I will live it for you"…. This decision is purely subconscious, coming from deep unconditional love. Nonetheless it is activated.

Years later the daughter may herself experience a sexual violation, maybe even rape. Because she is not only identified with her mother's pain, but had also witnessed throughout childhood how her mother dealt with the pain, i.e. keeping the pain inside, the daughter will repeat that behaviorism and pattern. She will built walls and hide the pain behind. Thus she became like her mom. The subconscious desire of the daughter to be loved by her mother has made her become like mom. "Hopefully now mom will see and love me", is the silent hope of the inner child of the daughter. The unresolved dynamic has repeated itself.

The daughter might have a child herself later in life that might start to identify and entangle with the same unresolved patterns. Such unresolved dynamic within a family can be repeated up to the seventh generation after the original event. With every generation that entangles with it the dynamic itself will be more and more intense. Healing at a certain point will be the only way to break the cycle.

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